I must be a glutton for punishment...

I dunno what it is about women from California. They are no good for me yet, I love them. I dunno whether it's me being super vain and having the dreamy idea of having a good looking chick in from outta town and when my peeps asks me where she's from I say "She from Cali" so they can say "whewwww" or "daayum" or whether deep down there is actually sometype of dysfunctional fascination about attractive women from that state.

Well, I was in Boston a couple times over the last few weeks and met this chick up there online. "June" nice chick we didn't smash or anything, just vibed which is cool in fact, it's even better. It's nice to have a really attractive chick to hangout with and enjoy, without having a sexual past or strategically lining it up to smash. Anyway, she's in town for the P.R. parade with her girlfriend. She calls me, she wants to come through & see me before she goes back to Boston.

Sidebar: Talk about timing, my mother just left and has my crib smelling like "Mr. Clean" and "Dettol" for all you Jamaicans, LOL...My spot is super, super clean. As she said to me "I can't have my granddaughter living in filth so just move outta my way. Jeez Ma!! I'm not that bad, shit I ain't even here to mess up the damn place but in any event....Thank you again Mummy!!

Anyway late Sunday afternoon June and Maggie come through. We making drinks, eating Chinese, we're all hanging out at my crib then....."Mica" calls. On the house phone. I look at the phone. I don't wanna answer the phone but I do....

Mica: OMG you answered

BT: I live here don't I?

Mica: Boy don't play wit me. I was gonna leave a message saying I booked my ticket and you better not leave me hanging.

BT: Damn, already? We was just talking/playing the other day I had no idea you actually was gonna call my bluff and come.

Mica: Well I did you piece of shit, so now you're stuck with me for 3 days. I'm leaving out of Burbank into JFK so you gotta pick me up.

BT: Can we talk about this later?

Mica: I can already tell in your voice you got company and she's a girl isn't she?...You're such a piece of shit. You're a dog! Bye!

BT: Ugh!! I promise I'll call you later

Mica: Why do I still care anyway?....Bye!

My "new" friend June immediately reads the situation. She says "Why you let her do that? I can already tell you don't want her to come". I agree and say I dont, but deep down I really do.

Now, I have never written about this girl before on my blog but all my friends know her well either directly or indirectly. She's from LA and works as some kinda coordinator or administrator but from her looks and size, 5'7 & 130lbs, she definitely should have been a model or something. This woman "claims" to be in love with me and still wants to move to NY to be with me but that is something I cannot EVER do again. However, with that said I must admit I told Bigboy as recently as a week or two ago she is among my all-time top 3 women I've ever dated when it comes to physical appearance and personality....maybe #1. When my old ex from Cali left me and moved out for the last time, I flew "Mica" in for the weekend just because....Thinking back I probably shouldn't have done that though because her feelings intensified quickly (honestly mines did too) and I just wanted her for a beautiful distraction and a breather. Feelings was definitely there but I couldn't kid myself in not realizing this is typical rebound.

My boy X-ray who was staying with me at the time was actually "stalking" this chick INSIDE my apartment, LOL.. It was actually kinda funny thinking about it now but he toned it down after a day or so. During that trip and the next one they actually became good pals, LOL. But that's just how gorgeous this woman is... the type of chick who makes you stare just a half a second longer than you know you should, but you can't help yourself. Well, she continued to make suggestions and plans to move here with me but I just couldn't.....We still had problems because I had to completely flush that other chick outta my system first. I had to admit she wasn't outta my system then. NYL had just popped in the picture too so emotionally I was all over the place. I pretty much left her alone her to start dealing with the "other" Cali chick years back so she already had/has insecurities about that on top of the fact that now...years later I needed to get that same chick outta my system I left her for. Long story short, I basically deaded everything between us even though I had known this chick from maybe 2000 or 2001 because everything just got real crazy between us... quick.

So fast-forward 6 months later I just get a call out of the blue and she tells me she was watching "Troy" and "Last Samurai" and thought about me since she knows they are some of my favorite movies. Let her tell it she just wanted to hear my voice. Well, old feelings die hard so during our conversation one thing lead to another and I say "Ya know, if you buy a 1 way tix here, I'll pay for your return and since you'll stay with me the trip will be on me when we go out (it pretty much always is anyway). I said it as a halfa joke, you know what I mean, serious but not really meaning it. I didn't expect her after our conversation to go to goddamn Jetblue and buy the tix.... but she did. Hence the phone call on confirming the details....

Even though she coming under the guise of being just friends I know no good can come of this trip. It's no secret that we're hooked on each other... always have been. However, there was no way I could turn down such a beautiful guest for a weekend.

I gotta admit it....Sometimes, I'm a fukkin' idiot!!